.Friday, June 6, 2008 ' 7:58 AM Y
& i walk alone
MY THOUGHTS.
hais.
i'm feeling so frustrated now.
&i'm soooo-greatly-very-extremely vexed by customers' actions&behaviour.
i do not know where the fault lies in,
is it my problem or the customers' problem?
i have no idea.
i gave them what they want = good service,
but what i've got in return was = customers' fucking attitude.
is it either they threw money at me, or they talked to me as if i owed them big money.
i'm utterly dismayed by their actions.
everyone told me not to brood over this matter&continue to do what i should do,
but i just can't.
it's becoming a phobia to me towards working.
&this is a message to some customers,
'please look through the menu over and over again&think about what you really want before coming up to me and give me all sorts of nonsensical orders.'
&LASTLY, for your information, MACDONALDS DOES NOT SELL CHICKY MEAL.
i think i don't belong in that group&i know i shouldn't.
i feel left out.
i am trying very hard for them to like me.
they have been together for long,
but me.. JUST.
i know it's my problem, i cannot be complacent.
but i just want them to know that i just want to have
a bunch of friends who will always be out there for me.
as simple as that.
i'm feeling very empty.
everytime when i am sad,
she will always be encouraging me&lending me a pair of listening ears.
i know she is in a relationship recently,
but i just need one day or even one hour to tell her how i feel.
i hope she can understand.
should i forget about him?
i've been waiting for 6months&it seems like there isnt any progress at all.
i do not have the courage to tell him how i feel.
&i will never give up until he tells me 'i do not have any feelings for you' right in front of my face.
i want to let you know 'iloveyouverymuch'.
XIAOFEN;